What I don't want.. sticks around;
What I want.. doesn't stay !
Seems like.. 'being misunderstood' and 'not trusted' are now profile defining qualities; contrary to my understanding of myself.
So.. I've been made to believe that I'm so good at screwing up the 'perfect' and.. I suck :|
Things may 'end' up fine.. but.. what comes along the way to the 'end' makes it all taste so god-darned aweful.. Instead of livin'-it-enjoyin'-it through, I end up hatin'-it-condemnin'-it..
I don't know whats wrong.. if it is~
I don't know what to do about it.. even if a solution exists~
Losin' the not-to-be-lost.... saga.. continues !
Searching for the 'lights'.. I believe.. they'll guide..